I was totally and completely FREAKED OUT…scared to death…
I had no clue what I was doing or why I was doing such a crazy thing.
There was just that nagging….thing…inside me that said, “Go.” And I knew I had to go or else I would regret it the rest of my life.
There were misunderstandings, misconceptions, miscues, misdirection, and several screw-ups – most of which I caused.
From the outside looking in, people were encouraged, inspired, challenged, and touched.
It was like God was somehow turning the inabilities into something better. huh.
I think I read that somewhere…
It was so compelling that I needed to keep going. Despite my failing. Despite my weakness. Despite my insecurities.
Now, I’m not so inept. I’m growing and learning and getting better at doing this crazy thing. I still have a long way to go, but it’s better than it was a year ago.
Here are the biggest lessons learned in the last year:
1. It’s not easy.
I think I expected it to be much easier, fewer obstacles, more things I did well, fewer mistakes. Nope. My American tendency to try to find the most comfortable route does not serve me in this Kingdom dream journey.
2. But, it’s much, much better.
Okay. So it sounds cliche I know. But, it’s true. Truer than I can describe in words. Living out your God-give Kingdom purposes, however inept I am at it, is much more fulfilling and satisfying than not doing it. No matter how scary it is.
3. Don’t give up.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wanted to give up during this last year. Probably once a week or so I’d break down into an emotional tirade, “I CAN’T DO THIS!” After I smacked the wall of my insecurity at full speed and went **SPLAT**, somehow God would give me just enough to get me back on my feet and moving again.
I’ve seen that most dreams don’t come fully alive because most people give up on them.
4. You won’t have everything you need before you begin.
I’ve learned that you won’t be ready when God calls you to do something. You will have lots of gaps between what you need to do it and what you have at your disposal. He does that on purpose. So that you have to learn to rely on him.
5. God works on your fear **AS YOU MOVE DESPITE YOUR FEAR**.
Your fear won’t be gone before you launch out. You won’t be ready. You’ll probably be scared to death. God works on breaking down your fear step-by-step, as you move, as you trust, as you go along the journey. It’s as you take action that God does his best work in you.
6. I still don’t know what I’m doing exactly. I don’t have to.
I’m still making mistakes and learning from them. I still occasionally want to quit. It’s still not easy. And I’m still a bit afraid. But, I am learning just how much I can trust a very big God who cares more about His Kingdom coming alive in and through me than I do.
When it’s all said and done, it’s God’s dream.
He is simply inviting us into the journey with him.
I’d suggest you take him up on it.
Is there a passion to do something you aren’t sure you can do? A dream stirring in your heart that doesn’t seem to go away?
Don’t waste anymore time. Let’s get moving.
If you would like some help, encouragement, or coaching, just email me. I’ll be happy to help you explore the possibilities.
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Romans 8:37