Can I just say, “Ahhhh…”
The retreats started as a seed of an idea in my head about thirteen years ago when I had this overwhelming ache in my heart for more of God. I knew how to read the Bible, and do church, and pray, and study, and do most of the things I should and avoid doing most of the things I shouldn’t…but I didn’t really know God.
I was doing the Christian thing, but I didn’t know Jesus.
You know what I mean?
So, I was reading about how Jesus often withdrew to the wilderness to pray. Everything in my soul cried out for that quiet time. But, I had absolutely no idea how to be quiet. Be still and know that I am God, right? Nope. Not a clue on how to do that.
So, the retreats stemmed from my own inability to search for more of Christ.
A little over eight years ago, I meekly asked a group of women to join me in this journey to find more of Christ. I suggested a retreat that would be a safe place to explore some of the old spiritual disciplines others had used to search the deep things of God. They agreed and we set off on the adventure. We fumbled, we stumbled, we said things we shouldn’t, we didn’t say the things we should, yet, God will be found.
Well over a dozen retreats later, the group has grown to twelve powerful women who know Jesus more intimately now than they did before.
Two thoughts struck me as I looked around the room and marveled at these women;
“We’ve found more of Christ and He wanted to be found.”
And, “I can’t screw this up.”
God takes my feeble attempts and somehow turns them into something beautiful. He takes my mistakes and redeems them.
The only way to mess this up is if I don’t try.
My job is to keep pushing on, keeping getting up after I fall, keep apologizing and repenting of my weaknesses, and keep going.
I see such incredible fruit from such weak attempts. It gives me courage to try again.
And that speaks of the deep things of God…
Abundant life is not found in our perfection but in
our imperfection being perfected.
What will you try today?
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21