I haven’t been posting anything lately. You probably noticed.
November and December have traditionally been down months for me. But, never “drop off the face of the earth” kind of months as these past two months have been. I felt a heavy hand on me like God was holding me back, asking me to completely unplug.
It hasn’t been a bad thing. In fact, it’s actually been kinda sweet. Like God and I have been holding up in a log cabin in the backwoods of the mountains somewhere. Away from civilization. Away from the craziness of the electronic age…
It’s kinda been like Little House on the Prairie.
(I’m not kidding. There’s a pink tractor in the driveway of the house across the street. Beyond that, corn fields… Endless cornfields…)
In the past, I’ve always received some huge, earth shaking revelation about what’s next when God has sequestered me away.
This time, however, it’s been just a quiet reassurance that God is who God says He is. “I am that I am…”
In the past, that would have really ticked me off. I’m a doer; a goer. I’m a super overachiever who is always hungry for the next mountain top – the next big dream. I would have been crying out, “What next, Papa!!”
I’m also afraid of what people think of me. The thought of shutting down for two months scared me. The idea of coming back with a post after a long break…well…was frankly terrifying. What would you think of me?
- Have I been afraid that we’d lose the momentum that was gained in 2012? Yep.
- Have I been frightened that people would think I’d given up on my Kingdom Dream? Yep.
- Have I been scared that I heard wrong? Maybe God was saying “you slug” not “unplug”? Oh yeah.
This time was different, though.
I was only afraid for a moment. Then I just…relaxed…breathed…and enjoyed…
If you know me very well, you’re probably in shock right now. Those are things I don’t do well!
Funny how God works, eh? It’s like He really means to complete His work in us.
So, I’m back. Imperfectly but passionately pursuing Jesus with everything I have inside me.
I have no idea what’s coming next for me and this dream.
Yet, I am refreshed, renewed, and totally stoked about the God we serve.
I pray you are refreshed and ready for 2013. I have a feeling it’s going to be another adventurous year.
“This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?”
God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are.
We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance!
We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!” Romans 8:15-17 The Message